I don't know if what I'm feeling is nostalgia, loss regret or guilt. I think it is more of a longing for what it once were. Or, maybe the feelings mixed together, stirred up by memories and emotional dynamics. It takes so much time to get over things, but then again places and people bring you right back. Momentarily. You get that mixture, or I-don't-know-what-to-call-it again. You are caught by surprise. Reminded of how it felt like. I've been numbed by time that I don't feel anything anymore. Until I was right there, in that place, that it hit me. I miss it. I miss it and I want to go back. I want the sweet old moments back.