Tuesday, May 8, 2012

I want 'em moments back.

I don't know if what I'm feeling is nostalgia, loss regret or guilt. I think it is more of a longing for what it once were. Or, maybe the feelings mixed together, stirred up by memories and emotional dynamics. It takes so much time to get over things, but then again places and people bring you right back. Momentarily. You get that mixture, or I-don't-know-what-to-call-it again. You are caught by surprise. Reminded of how it felt like. I've been numbed by time that I don't feel anything anymore. Until I was right there, in that place, that it hit me. I miss it. I miss it and I want to go back. I want the sweet old moments back.

Its yours.

Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreparable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not-quite, the not yet and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it's yours.
- Ayn Rand