Leap into the unknown

Between the mind digesting process, acceptance and the stubbornness of my own beliefs.
Between what I thought was right and what is not.
Between what I thought is true and what is.
Between dark chocolate and milk chocolate.
Between the meaning of maybe, yes, and no.
Between the taste of pepsi and cola.
That is how I feel.
Just that, being in between.

Show them who's boss!

I believe in my own power.
I am the boss of my emotions.
I recently realized that I have complete and utter control on how I make myself feel, and by that shape the mood I put myself in for rest of the day!
Sometimes I shut the world out. You know like my cranky-ness, bad mood, PMS phase & I only exist. I give in, I decide to let cranky-ness win the best of me and spend the day in bed with a bowl of ice cream or a jar of nutella and my favorite tv shows.
Not that I did not try to disappear. Believe me I've tried to sleep for a thousand years but that didn't work out well for me, turned out to be impossible..
But sometimes, I choose to ignore, look at the rosy and rainbow-ish invisible bright side. Make it all work out for me. I, can do that, for me because I deserve it.
In fact I think, there's no reason I can't have a life that I enjoy and love, even if I were in denial.
You shouldn't too. Life is, about you after all and how you make it work for YOU.
Believe in thyself.

Love, A!

Distance

Being there, too close, knowing that you just can't reach out for it, is the worst kind of suffering.

Feeling further than ever.

Where do they go from here?

Sometimes it is always better that a dreadful issue in my life or a not-as-tragic-as-it-sounds-out-loud-than-in-my-head kinda issue, falls under my "by choice" than "by fate" category. However, the fact is sometimes it makes me feel much better that I tried my very best but it didn't work out the way I hoped it would simply because it was out of my hands. A twist of fate. Like all the other species on the planet evolving to adapt, I accept what fate brought my way.

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A little less than perfect.

If 'amazing' means struggle-free, sparkflying romantic perfection, I'm afraid they are seeking something that is not possible. But if it means honest, evolving imperfect relationships that are rooted in friendship, respect and trust, cultivated through time, struggle and patience. Then 'amazing' is a good relationship goal to aspire to.

- Dr Saliha Afridi.

Rage like fire.

Although I tend to do that a lot, I hate to say this but I hate when people bring up issues from the past in an argument! A sign of deep seated resentment. But sometimes, it is inevitable. You see, right in the middle of an argument, I surprise myself by bring the silliest most irrelevant things up. They say the more you love and care about someone, the more you pay attention to the little details that might have hurt your feelings. I was the type that needed to clear my head before the serious talk. But now, I tend to snap at people I care about for the silliest things. I make no sense anymore, not even to myself.

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In a rose colored bubble no more.

With all the transition that was happening around me, somehow by the end of 2011, I became speechless. It all became larger than words. You know, like a caterpillar turning into a butterfly. Except the part that, unlike butterflies, the world around me wasn't all rosy and rainbow-ish. Life popped my little rose-colored bubble. I like to believe that it is slowly, very slowly, falling into place. I have faith that everything that has happened is for the best, my best. By Jan, 2012. I started seeing where it went wrong, where it got all better. So many things had changed in me and around me. Really, I never saw me here or even through this much. You see I started to believe in heartbreak after high expectations and too much hope, the power of eye cream, the cure of time, the magic of Argan Oil, the art of letting go and comfort food.

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Super cute!

Miu miu cruise collection.

Deep down inside.

"Right now I want a word that describes the feeling that you get - a cold sick feeling, deep down inside - when you know something is happening that will change you, and you don't want it to, but you can't stop it. And you know, for the frist time, for the very first time, that there will now be a before and an after, a was and a will be. And that you will never again quite be the same person you were."

- Jennifer Donnelly, A Northern Light